I got rejected from Pepperdine University and University of California San Diego. I got wait-listed from University of California Davis.
I wasn’t expecting any of this. God, I trust You.
I got rejected from Pepperdine University and University of California San Diego. I got wait-listed from University of California Davis.
I wasn’t expecting any of this. God, I trust You.
I foolishly forget that Jesus loves him so much that he will die on the cross for him. Actually, He already did. May I remember that truth and persistently pray for Steven.
Today I felt extremely cruddy for no apparent reason. I took couple of my “friends” out to lunch…
I thought about what Iris said last night. She said, “I have deep relationships with only couple of people. I want and need friends who are real. I don’t want any quick relationships.”
It’s so true. Why am I tangling myself with people that I do not feel comfortable with? Because they’re cool? Because they’re attractive?
Reality check— Be grateful for the real, genuine friends I have in my life.
I thank You for those who came and went. I thank You for those who left huge scars in my life. I thank You for those who came and stayed. I thank You for those who persistently encourage, support and love me. I thank You for those who will come. I thank You for past relationships, current relationships and future relationships to come. I anticipate the experiences to come.
No matter what comes my way, please provide me the vision to see things the way You see them. You overwhelm and satisfy me.
I wish I had the everlasting courage to stand up for what I believe in. I wish I had the everlasting faith to persevere in all situations. I wish I had the heart to forgive those who broke my heart and left.
I wish and wish. My wishes become prayers. My prayers become visions. My visions become real.
You make all things work together for my good. Why is that such a surprising phrase every time I hear it.
Lord I sincerely pray that we can both grow in Christ. Junior year is rough and senior year is tough. May we never lose sight of Your being. You are everywhere but we always fail to see that. He is precious and I don’t want to taint him. He belongs to You. Lord may we persistently strive in Your presence. Lord may we constantly pray.
Please shake and shift our hearts. We need it.
It’s amazing how God interferes in our lives. Christ always makes enough room in our lives to squeeze by. And every small and big details are according to His plan.
I just have to constantly remind myself that I have to learn from my past mistakes. I was foolish to jump right back into a familiar situation. I don’t want to be hurt. I don’t want the other person hurt either. More importantly, I don’t want to stray afar from Christ. I am sincerely content with where I am right now and I don’t need anymore distractions.
He’s a sweet guy, but not for me. I know. Or at least I think I know.
You certainly give and take away.
A lot has happened these past few weeks. I got admitted to the School of Education, Health and Physical program at Syracuse University for the fall semester 2012. My dad received a manufacturing order worth $100,000. I did extremely well on my two math exams (I think so).
But somewhere inside of my heart I feel anxious and paranoid. I want to cherish and grip these good fortunes for a long time but I foolishly forget that is not the choice.
Christ gives and takes away, all for my good. I am grateful.
God really does have plans for all of us. God gives all of us different obstacles and different experiences so we can become the person Christ wants us to be. Some are passionate about children, some are passionate about politics, some are passionate about neurons, some are passionate about fashion and some are passionate about Shakespearean literature. It’s totally insane how intricate, complex and beautiful his plans are for all of us. He knows what’s right. He knows what makes us fulfilling.
My mom mentioned to me earlier this morning that “vision” isn’t necessarily something grand that we all imagine and hope it to be. I always thought “vision” had something to do with building a church, going on mission trips to third-world countries and being a profound leader. But it really isn’t. Really.
Vision is what’s happening right now. Anything and everything I do to glorify Christ and honor His people, that’s what He calls vision. This is crazy. This is too much for me to comprehend.
